Run But Never Hide

I finally fell.

After avoiding it for almost two and a half years, I finally came down with Covid.

At the worst time ever.

We’re at a conference in Milwaukee, and I had the opportunity to spend time with people I haven’t seen in years. Relationships I value and want to invest in.

It’s not going to happen.

I’m stuck in a hotel room for the next five days, feeling like someone ran over me with a steamroller, and not wanting to see or talk to anyone. I don’t need to go to the hospital, but I can’t afford to expose anyone to what I have.

The worst of it is we’ve had to cancel our family vacation. We’ve been planning this since last year, getting all seven families together in one place for four days of cooperative fun and familial interaction. It would have been the first time we’d all been together in years.

And it was all because of me.

No one wants to see themselves as the villain of the story. But it’s easy to feel the pressure of what appears to be my responsibility.

I did what I could to prevent this from happening. I got the necessary vaccinations and boosters. I wore a mask when I was asked to. I kept my distance from those who’d been exposed. Did I do it all perfectly? No.

We all have times in our lives when the situation feels unsustainable, more than we can handle. Too often the tendency is to complain or blame someone else. Hard and unexpected events will be part of our lives as long as we live.

The Psalms are songs and poems of people dealing with their emotions before God. Spilling out their hearts to Him in anger, joy, sadness, hope, grief, and love. There was recognition that life was hard, that circumstances weren’t always what was expected, and that people found relief in speaking about their feelings, good and bad.

“God is our Refuge and Strength, ALWAYS ready to help in times of trouble. So we will not fear WHEN earthquakes come and the mountains crumble into the sea. Let the oceans roar and foam. Let the mountains tremble as the waters surge!” Psalm 46:1-3

Our issues will often be greater than we can handle; it’s easy to despair when life feels out of control. The hard will happen. We lose sight of the bigger picture and forget who we are–or can be–when we are His children.

I’m not thrilled about this turn of events, but I’m not going to beat myself up about something I couldn’t prevent short of staying in my room the entire time I was here. Why come at all?

I will wait and watch and see what God will do in and through me with this unexpected downtime.

There’s beauty to not being able to plan every aspect of my life. Surprises can bring unexpected blessings.

Hiding doesn’t help for the challenges of life will find us.

Hope brings possibilities of fresh perspectives.

10 responses to “Run But Never Hide”

    1. Thanks, Mags. John now has it as well. The spiritual battle rages on.

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  1. Hi. So sorry to hear about this and just how frustrating it is…But please don’t beat yourself up, easily said than done! ๐Ÿ˜€
    I love the fact you can still connect with the wordpress family too, and still bless us with your wisdom and Godly outlook! Praying for you, your situation and everyone who you’ll bless at the hotel! God bless you. ๐Ÿ™ ๐Ÿ˜€

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    1. Thanks, Steve. Your words are always a balm to my soul. My husband got it today, so the disappointment seems to be exponentially increasing. But I have to keep reminding myself–But God.

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  2. Get well soon. Itโ€™s the surprises in life that make it worth living, and you provide much worth to life!

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    1. Thanks my friend. This has been quite the journey, I can tell you. But Iโ€™m confident this isnโ€™t for nothing. God is greater than a virus. You take care of yourself.

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  3. Dayle, so sorry you’re not feeling well, and hope you’ll be well soon – and able to be out and about!

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    1. Thanks, Sheila. The disappointment keeps growing–my sweet husband, who is running this conference, came down with it this morning. I know God is in it–but disappointment is real.

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  4. So sorry you got sick, friend. I also spent days in my room in Milwaukee – ugh. Get better soon. ๐Ÿ’›

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    1. I heard both you and Steve had it! I’m so sorry. Did you miss everything? That’s been the biggest bummer. John came down with it this morning. Not in the plan! But God!

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