When Weary Wings Won’t Fly

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There’s a busyness of life that catches up with me on a regular basis.

Don’t get me wrong. I love being busy. I’ve been told for years that I’m not good at relaxing. Or slowing down. I’d always figured as long as I could live full out, full on, I’d rest when I couldn’t move at full throttle.

Lately, with the demands of life and people–my own choosing on every front–I find my get-up-and-go has abandoned me. Left me with watching-it-fade-and-not-coming-back.

The weather has turned cold and rainy here in Colorado. It’s typical of what we experience in Orlando in January. For about a week. I know it will change, but this is sniffles climate. Everyone around us seems to be getting sick. Or trying to get well. My nose has been on a mission to produce as much snot as possible in record-breaking time. Unpleasant drainage at best.

Add to this the main emphasis of our summer training beginning next week, and it feels exhausting.

My typical morning routine, which includes brisk walking around beautiful scenery, has been the fodder for an on-going argument with my whiney self.

“Get it together, Rogers, and put on those walking shoes. The day isn’t getting any younger.”

Sigh. “It’s cold outside. And drizzly. I’m tired. My body aches. I need a day off. I’ll appreciate it more tomorrow.”

Stern mental look. “You give in once, you’ll just give in again. Stop whining and complaining and get moving.”

Bigger sigh. “I don’t wanna.”

Angry mental expression. “You wimp. You’re a quitter.”

Biggest sigh. “Fine. I’m a quitter. I can live with that.”

And so it goes.

It’s a toss-up who wins on any given day. The driven me. Or the downer me.

Reality is we all get tired. Physical exhaustion is only part of it. I find for me that if I’m emotionally engaged in an issue, that  can sap more strength than being physically active. The mind and heart working in conjunction to solve a problem or help a friend can deplete my energy and leave me with no reserve.

In a take on the Snickers’ commercial, you’re not you when you’re tired.

No one can move through life without a break. Constant motion isn’t sustainable.

God gets that.

In relationship with Him, I have His power and strength to persevere. To push through when the going gets tough.

“He (God) gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless. Even youths will become weak and tired, and young men will fall in exhaustion. But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.”     Isaiah 40:29-31

This doesn’t mean I’m not responsible for making time to rest. To regroup when I’m weary.

It does mean that the One who never becomes tired is at work in me. Always. To help me finish well. Hoping in Him pushes me beyond my complaints to see the possibilities of being renewed, inside and out, by a force greater than me.

Soaring rather than stumbling.

Take that, whiney self.









10 responses to “When Weary Wings Won’t Fly”

  1. Sending you a BIG empathetic hug, dear friend. Germs are one very unwelcome result of the Fall and have had totally too much power in our apartment lately too. Praying you get better very soon!


    1. This, too, will pass, my friend. The bigger question is when do I actually get some face time with you?


  2. Sorry to hear you are under the weather…in every sense. Carleen said the highs have been in the 50’s in Estes too. Atypical indeed. But I do hope you give yourself the rest you need so that you can be up and at at 100% for the staff conf. CALL ME when you get a minute, please!


    1. So looking forward to you and the fam getting up here. Fun awaits!


  3. Love this. That Snickers commercial is so true. Praying good rest for you soon beautiful one.


    1. You, my lovely friend, are indeed a heart encourager. Thanks for this–and I’m so looking forward to seeing you! Don’t know exactly when–I’ve barely got a grip on today. But it will happen!


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    Alice Fredricks

    Looking forward to seeing you soon, Dayle, even if briefly! Hope the sniffles leave soon! I’m glad that the One who lives within me never grows tired AND that He understands when I do!


    1. The sniffles will pass. But I am looking forward to seeing you! I miss you, my friend!


  5. It’s a toss-up who wins on any day with me also, Dayle – driven or downer. [I grew up in NY so the cold doesn’t bother me.] I get tired also – for the same reason you do – I’m glad GOD gets that and thank you for your reminder in Isaiah 40 that HE is at work in even me! [Please get rid of your sniffles soonest!]


    1. I love that He loves however we show up. It’s never a surprise. And God gratefully takes us as we are. Downer or driven!


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